Will I make it?

We're going over to the IL's Sat to celebrate my SIL's bday. Our plan is to wait until after my 1st appointment, which isn't for 2 weeks...I just want to yell out loud "I'M PREGNANT!" I'm kinda nervous about telling my own mom though cause she's a worrier and I'm hoping she just project on me too much. Here's hoping I can hold out!

Bad dream!

So I had this awful dream last night. My mom has a drinking problem and it has been an issue for a long time, but has become a bigger and bigger problem for our relationship over the last couple of years. So I dreamt that I was at my parents house and she was drinking again and we got in a fight and I was balling my eyes out and all of a sudden I noticed bright red blood....So I jumped out of bed and POAS, still + of course since it was a dream and all, but it just felt so real...
I really need to find a way to separate myself from that situation for awhile, I don't want to stress of it to way on me right now. I don't know how my dad and little brother can stand it.

Okay I think I love this bedding, would you consider this neutral? My first instinct was yet, but then I wasn't so sure. We still haven't decided if we will find out the sex of the baby or not. DH wants to, but I don't. Although I'm thinking that if I compromise on that maybe he'll compromise more on names...?

Its so hard to keep such a huge secret!

I want to tell everyone that I know that I'm pregnant! But I know its best to wait a few more weeks because so much can happen...I just can't wait to tell everyone.

Exhausted

I am sooo tired today! I knew it would be busy at work considering one of my coworkers is out on maternity leave and the other is out for a week, but I didn't expect it to be as busy as it was. I hope I can get some good sleep tonight. Its supposed to snow and possibly have an mini ice storm tonight so we'll see how early I make it into work!

To add to my list

40. The fact that I am pregnant!
41. Hanging out with my SIL last night
42. That I have an awesome job!
43. Thinking about holding our baby
45. Thinking about Jeff being a father

BFP!

So I got my BFP yesterday!!!! I was driving to get something to tell DH with and all of a sudden it hit me and I starting crying and saying over and over "I'm pregnant, I'm pregnant, thank God I'm pregnant!" This is a copy and paste from my post on GP of how I told DH:

So when DH came home from work this morning at 7:30 this is what happened:
DH: "what r u doing up"?
Me: "I couldn't sleep"
DH: "what's in the gift bag?" as he starts going through the mail that he picked up out of the mailbox
Me: "Its for you can you open it now"?
DH: "can it wait a second"?
Me: "no, please open it now"
DH: "what is this for"? As he pulls out the I love daddy bib and infant Bengals jersey and a smile spreads slowly
Me: I jumped up and showed him my + HPT and he looked like a little kid on Christmas and hugged and kissed me and asked when I was going to the doctor to confirm and when are you going to test again to make sure...
Now he's off to bed and its just me and the dog.