Its a boy!

Per the chinese gender predictor that is. I think the little icon that pops up is hysterical!

I can't take it anymore

I can't deal with my mother's crap anymore. She has a total lack of self control and total lack of disregard for anyone elses thoughts, feelings and wishes. For those of you that are reading this and don't know, my mother is an alcoholic. So she hasn't always been this way, but the alcohol is ruining her mind, body and life. I can't take it anymore, I need to remove myself from the situation. I don't want the stress of it to cause any harm to our baby.

I guess maybe I need to start going to Al-Anon for support. I don't know. I just know that I would hate myself if I turned my back on her and something happened to her. But I have reached out to her (and so has the rest of our family) time and time again and she is in such a state of denial that she doesn't get it. I can't keep doing this anymore. I cringe everytime I see her name on caller id and the times that I actually answer or return her calls the conversations are always so draining and toxic. I guess now I just have to look out for my mental and emotional well being and the well being of our baby...

Furniture

I think this is the nursery furniture we are going to get. The IL's said they want to buy the crib, which is helpful! I love convertible cribs, what a great idea.

Our baby

Has a healthy hb of 150 bmp! I got to see our baby yesterday for the first time and actually got to hear the hb and yes I cried. What an awesome day!

Bleh!

When will this all day sickness go away?! I usually feel better after I eat something, but only temporarily and then like 30 min later I'm nauseous again...DH's comment was you asked for this. Well I don't think anyone TTC really understands what m/s is all about until they actually have it, but I know it will be so worth it in the end. I can't wait for my 1st appt on Tuesday, I'm sooooo excited!

Will I make it?

We're going over to the IL's Sat to celebrate my SIL's bday. Our plan is to wait until after my 1st appointment, which isn't for 2 weeks...I just want to yell out loud "I'M PREGNANT!" I'm kinda nervous about telling my own mom though cause she's a worrier and I'm hoping she just project on me too much. Here's hoping I can hold out!